So here’s a thing. You know how I said earlier about treating myself in good ways? Well, I bought that make up and hair stuff, and then I went and bought a really pretty coffee mug and had a good strong coffee at five pm – wine o’clock be damned, this seems to do the trick in terms of carving out a space for a rest before the next shift.
And here I am at almost six, kids squabbling and dinner half made, and I suddenly thought of the long bath & beauty evening I have planned and felt a bubble of excitement. Who needs wine?
I do realise that this won’t last. Right now I’m letting myself buy, eat, do pretty much anything I want, and that is unsustainable. But I’m checking in with my feelings a lot, and they’re so much better than I thought.